Many bereaved parents find it helpful to share their experiences with others and to hear from parents in similar positions to themselves. As part of our grief support, we are building a database of stories, meaningful poems or prose that have helped you or others through the grieving process. These meaningful words offer reassurance, relief from distress, or a much-needed conncection to someone who understands.
I sit and try to make sense of it all with no emotion, no feeling. Wanting to feel something but there isn't anything there.
Like the ocean when struck by mother earth it comes with no real warning, every emotion I have wanted to feel is so overwhelming I can hardly deal with each feeling as it is dealt to me. Now I want to run, hide, the most awful feeling of panic is upon me, and tears fall for the greatest loss I will ever have to endure. Reality is now staring me in the face, my son Sam has died.
And then like the ocean in a Tsunami everything starts to calm down, and I feel composed again, picking up the pieces trying to get on with my life and accepting this is how it is. I take Sam with me on all my journeys, however small, and he will be with me forever.